i can't do anything just a little bit, i've found. it's all or nothing. whenever i obsess over something my real life and responsibilities start their slow decent into the shitter, so i think it's time i step back from dream world for a bit and reenter the world of the living.

that's not to say i won't submit anything here, it's just the frequency is gonna drop heavily. probably. who knows. every time i say i'm gonna get my shit together i somehow end up exactly back where i was? 1 step forward, 800 steps back. oy.

in other news my big sis (who's not much older than me) got engaged last weekend and i've been deemed maid of honor... making me feel simultaneously happy and old. and weird. she's 23 and engaged, i'm almost 21 and have never been in an actual relationship. is that weird? probably not i guess... but it makes me feel weird.

okay yea rambling. i'll try and get the first glimpses thing up in the next few weeks.

okeeeey. time to not fuck everything up. let's do this. and hunger games next week. aw yis.